Glasses on the Wedding Day

I know this is still far ahead. Please note that I am just thinking of the future. I never make any plan on this yet, and nobody asks me to get married either. So don't panic! And no gossip please. Hahaha... I'm just thinking of the "what if" scenario.

And so I've been wondering about this topic. What will I do with my eyes on the day of my wedding? My vision is pretty bad. Seriously, without my glasses I can't see anything. I won't be able to see anyone unless that person is standing next to me. With my job and my hobbies requiring me to look at a computer screen for more than 12 hours a day, my vision is getting worse faster than the regular people's are. Imagine if I am getting married 5 years from now. By that time my eyes will be much worse than today. So there is no way I can go through the day without wearing any vision enhancer.

The problem is, putting something that requires a direct contact with my eyes is something very problematic. Putting some eye drops on my eyes is seriously a hassle. It can take around 15-20 minutes just to get it drop correctly into one of my eyes (yes, it's a pain every time there is something wrong with my eye). With that background, wearing contact lenses is definitely not an option. So then I was thinking of getting a Lasik surgery 5-6 months before my wedding day.

That was my plan up until a few minutes ago, when I found out what they actually do to your eyes in a Lasik surgery. During the surgery, a small flap will be cut from the eye. And then they will do something to your eye with laser, and then the flap will be repositioned back into the eye. I don't know what exactly a flap is, but I could imagine it is a part of the eye. Uhhh... As of that moment I decided not to get a Lasik surgery anymore. Although people told me it didn't hurt, I just couldn't stand the thought of my eyes getting cut, whether it's just the cornea layer, tissue, or whatever. Imagine that a small metal blade is coming closer and closer, making a direct contact with my eyes. Oh my gosh!!! There is absolutely no way I am gonna go through with it.

So then the only option I have is wearing glasses on my wedding day. Although I don't actually want to, but I can accept it since there is no other choice for me. The only thing that might be problematic about this is how I can persuade my mom and whomever I am marrying, that it is okay for a bride to wear glasses.

Clean-Up Project

It has been a long time since I want to do a clean-up on my blog. I think since I opened this blog years ago, I have gotten more mature quite a bit. When I read back all my posts from the past, once in a while I thought 'Really? I wrote this?'. Some of them showed how childish I was. Not sure if those were the product of emotion, but I guess it's a good indication that I'm growing up, not just stagnant. However, I do feel the need to remove some of them, since they were nothing but a bunch of unimportant grumble. They would just make the readers feel bored anyway. Hahahaha...

And recently I learned that it is not secure to use your real identity. I used to write about anything that I liked to write about, be it a personal or non-personal. Now that I realized it is insecure to do that, I decided to remove anything that is too personal. And yeah, I used to write the real name of anyone that I wrote about. That is not good, not for that particular person, and not for me either. I apologize for anyone who was involved in this. During the clean-up, I'll make sure to keep the anonymity.

Lastly, I am in the process of updating the layout. I asked my little sister to design it for me. She showed me the first revision and I can assure you it is going to be GOOD! I feel sorry though for my current layout as it is there only for a short period of time. Poor Keita! Hahahaha... I'm planning to keep the Keita layout on my LJ though =)

Since I have more than 500 posts, the clean up will take a very long time. I will try to work on it during my free time and hopefully I can finish it as soon as possible. And now the Clean-Up Project begins!

Blood Test

Last weekend, I went to the clinic lab to get my blood taken as my physician told me to do so (read this post for more story). I told the receptionist that I had an appointment, and then she asked me to wait while she processed the necessary paperwork. I had a bad memory of getting my blood taken, so I felt like waiting for my turn to be called into the torture chamber. Haha... My boyfriend said "Don't worry. It will only hurt a few seconds when she poke you."

The nurse called me and I went to follow her. She asked me which arm I wanted her to take the blood from. I preferred the left arm, since I used my right arm more than the left one. She tried to find the vein on both arms and she said it will be easier to do it on the right one. Oh well, I could insist to still use my left arm, but rather than being poked multiple times because she could not get it right the first time, which meant getting hurt multiple times, I let her do whatever she wanted to.

And then she said "I have two kind of needles here. I'll sterilize both and see which one works better." I wasn't sure how she would be able to tell which one worked better, but then I saw her taking one of them and moved closer to me and got ready to poke me. I was filled with terror. I thought, "Are you serious!? Are you going to do a trial-and-error on my arm!?" It would be ridiculous if she poked me with one needle, and then "Sorry, but this one does not work so let's try the other one..."

I saw the needle and it seemed to be smaller than what they used back in my elementary school days so that was good. As she tried to poke me, I looked away. I didn't think I could stand seeing my fresh blood flowing to the tube. I felt the pain for a few seconds, and the next few seconds, and the next few seconds, and the next few seconds... Huh!? My boyfriend lied to me!!! It hurt more than just a few seconds!!! I kept waiting and waiting when she would be done. She asked me, "Is everything ok?" I answered, "Oh yeah, no problem." If my boyfriend or my sister were the one who performed this, I would have yelled "That hurts!!! Stop it!" and then kicked them or so. But yeah, this was someone else so I needed to keep my image. Hahahahahaha... I just stayed quiet even though I felt the pain, and even though I could feel my blood getting sucked by the needle -__-;;

I heard her said "Okay, that works well." I looked at her direction and I felt so weak as I saw a tube full of maroon-colored blood. I looked away again. Gosh, it's good that I didn't look at it when she tried to take my blood, otherwise I would surely faint xD

It seemed that it was a success, because she told me everything was done and I could go. I still don't know though what she meant earlier about which needle worked better. I don't know if she already made the decision before she poked me, or if she really meant to do that trial-and-error thing. All in all, I'm glad everything was successful after the first try. And also I'm glad I only need to do this once a year (hopefully, if everything is good).

[Currently + Will Be] [Reading + Watching]

Currently, I am curious about this story called Ima, Ai ni Yukimasu or Be With You by Takuji Ichikawa. I just started reading the novel. After that, there will be 4 other stuff to compare it with:

• The manga adaptation.
• The Japanese TV Drama adaptation, with Hiroki Narimiya as the leading male character.
• The Japanese movie adaptation.
• The US movie adaptation, rumoured with Jennifer Garner as the leading female character.

I will call this the "Be With You" project, planned to be completed in 2009. Why is it so long, you say? Because the US movie adaptation is still in process, and hopefully it will be completed sometime next year. So I need to wait patiently until that time comes.

Annual Health Examination

This is the first time I ever had it. Back then my mom always said I was still young that I did not need anything like that. But then I worry a lot. What if there is something wrong with my health and it is already too late by the time we know it? Now that my health insurance covers 100% of the annual check up cost, I decided to use the opportunity. However, I am very sensitive to pain. I think I only have a very little resistance to it. When something hurts me a little, I can't stand it already.

Not knowing what the check up comprised of, I just went ahead and take it. They started off with a physical exam from the head to toe. It felt kinda weird having to take off everything. Although I was given the medical gown, but I still felt uncomfortable.

The next thing was the pelvic exam. I heard in order to get the test material, the doctor would have to put some sort of stick inside your private organ. I imagined it to hurt a lot, I was very scared. But after the doctor asked me several questions, she determined that I did not need to take it at this point. Ahhh... I was relieved.

She went on to check my immunization records. Apparently my last tetanus shot was 10 years ago, so she decided I should get the shot right there right then *shocked*. She said it should be fine, it should only hurt a little. I guess I should be fine too. When I took it last time in 6th grade, it hurt, but I could stand it. She told me on the count of three "take a deep breath and I'll give the injection." One... two... Before I could take my deep breath, she already poked the needle!!! I was caught off guard, it felt as if I was sewing something and my hand slipped and the needle stuck to my upper arm. Hahahaha... And then she warned me that the arm would feel a little sore. Now, as the time passes by, it hurts a lot!!! It's not just "a little"... x|

I thought my pain would end at that time. Apparently, she decided that I should get a blood test on Sunday. Ugghhh... The last time I got my blood taken was when I was still in 1st grade. I can clearly recall that the needle was much bigger than the immunization needle, and I cried like crazy at that time. It will be painful. The thoughts of fresh blood flowing out of my body is driving me crazy. I'm scared to death!!!! *fainted* @_@

Interesting but weird at the same time

I had a nice dream, but in a way it's kinda weird. In the dream, I was friend with Laruku. Even more, tetsu and I were an item. This is the weird part since I'm not a big fan of him (I'm a fan, but I'm not crazy about him as I'm crazy about hyde). The dream would be more perfect if it was hyde who became my boyfriend. Hahahaha...

So anyway, the dream had something to do with cell phone numbers. tetsu was being extremely careful, and he decided to delete his number from my cell to avoid leaking information. He was afraid that my friends would look at my cell phone and start spreading his phone number to all of the fans. His rationale was quite understandable, proven by one of my friends wanting to borrow my cellphone to see Laruku's cell numbers. As I tried to keep their numbers secret, I didn't have any other choice than to refuse her, although she was quite persistent. tetsu's reason was valid, but my friend told me that it was not fair for him to delete his number from my cell. She was right, I was quite mad since I was his girlfriend after all. "Couldn't he trust me more?" I thought to myself.

And then it was the time for me and my friend to go to Laruku's concert. Of course, Laruku had gone to the venue first to prepare for everything. Somehow when we got there, the concert hall was so huge that we were lost. There were no signs anywhere that indicated where the entrance was. I decided to call ken right away, but he didn't pick up the phone. I realized that ken was usually busy with his guitars before the concert that he never picked up any calls. My friend blamed tetsu for deleting his number from my cell, so now we couldn't even contact him when we needed his help. I actually had his number memorized, I just didn't tell my friend about it. But I was still mad at him that I didn't want to call him either. So we just decided to ask the people around if they knew where the entrance was. Nobody knew where it was, those people weren't even there for Laruku's concert. As I was desperate not to be late for the concert, I took my phone and started dialing hyde's number. It was connecting, waiting the destination to pick up the phone. I was waiting patiently, and finally there was the sound of somebody picking it up...

And then my alarm rang... Awesome, just at the perfect moment -__-;;; I haven't even had a chance to listen to hyde's voice!!! Arrrgghhhh damn it! Why is it that something always wakes me up when my dream is reaching its perfect moment T__T

As I was taking shower, I tried to analyze what just happened in the dream. It sure was strange. First of all, I never desire to be tetsu's girlfriend. Second, he's a married man, you know. And then, why did I choose ken as the first person to contact? Why not hyde? And why is it that I didn't even think of yukkie? In the dream, I remembered seeing ken and hyde when tetsu was messing with my cellhone, but I didn't see yukkie anywhere. And why is it that the dream revolved around phone numbers in the first place? Hahahaha... It's just so weird. Nevertheless, it's an interesting one xD

Bencana Lele Kuning

Setiap gue pergi ke tempat ini, gue selalu pergi ke WC yang sama. Bukan karena itu WC favorit gue, melainkan karena tuh WC paling deket sama keberadaan gue saat itu. Karena gue orangnya beser, gue juga sering banget ngunjungin nih WC. Sekali gue pergi ke tempat ini, 5-8 kali gue masuk ke pelukan sang WC. Kok kesannya menjijikkan ya? Hahahaha...

Eniwei gue sebelnya tuh sering banget gue liat lele kuning mengambang di salah satu ruangannya. Sumpah jijik abis. Siapa sih orang yang suka meninggalkan lele kuningnya? WC yang sering gue datengin ini emang kecil, cuman ada 2 ruangan di dalemnya, nggak kaya wc-wc laen yang lebih jauh biasanya ada sekitar 4-5 ruangan. Pengennya sih begitu liat lele kuning gue langsung masuk ke ruangan yang satunya, trus gue biarin aja ruangan yang berlele kuning itu. Tapi gue takutnya kalo ada orang laen yang masuk ke WC pas gue lagi cuci tangan gitu, atau kalo papasan di depan pintu WC, bisa-bisa gue dikira pelakunya lagi. Kan imej gue langsung jadi jelek dong. Jadinya tiap gue liat lele kuning langsung gue siram deh. Sebel juga sih emangnya gue tukang bersihin WC.

Dan kejadian ini tuh sering banget! Kenapa sih orang-orang ini? Harusnya mereka liat dulu dong sebelom keluar, udah masuk semua kotorannya atau belom. Kadang kan siraman aernya nggak selalu berhasil. Apalagi pengunjung tempat ini rata-rata orang dewasa. Anak-anak paling ke sini cuman sekali sebulan. Makanya gue heran, orang gede kok nggak bisa make WC dengan baek dan bener. Haih... -__-;;