Wow it's been almost 4 years since I actually wrote something. So many things have happened and I'm having a hard time "staying afloat" in life, thus this blog gets neglected ^^;;
The reason that I suddenly want to write in the middle of this hectic schedule though, is that I just read a manga in which at one point the heroine was dumped by the boyfriend unexpectedly. The author was really great at conveying the emotions that I suddenly reminisced about my own experience. It was so accurate that I could relate 100% to the girl's feelings because I underwent the exact same emotional states. The shocking moment the guy asked to break up... So shocking that everything just felt unreal. I remembered feeling as if the time stopped, my mind just when blank and I couldn't think or hear of anything else. It wasn't until a moment later after he left the scene that I realized what was happening and I broke down in tears. We were together only for 2 months; yes it was a short time and I was still a kid at the time. Even so, I loved him dearly and it broke my heart to find out he wanted to cut off our relationship so fast. I recalled asking myself repeatedly what I did wrong and why I was not enough for him. I also remembered waking up in the middle of the night everyday to find myself crying. Every time I saw him at school, I felt that my heart was torn into pieces.
When I remembered those moments, I felt the urge to write about it. I was originally thinking of posting on Facebook, but it was not really appropriate since I had my colleagues in there and they probably didn't care to know. So then I thought this was the perfect timing to write something on the blog, since only people who cared to know about me would visit and read my blog. Going back to the topic though, it took me several months, if not a year, to finally recover and go about my daily life as usual. Years later, I had my second relationship and now I'm happily married to my husband.
I think it's because I have a strong empathy that every time I see a similar situation, be it in a drama, comic, or a friend's experience, I end up recalling all those emotions again. In any case, my decision to write about it is to encourage any readers who are currently going through a heart break. It is extremely painful, and I know it feels like the world is coming to an end, but please hang in there. You might be asking why you still cannot forget him/her even after all these times. I am so sorry and I know nothing I say could make you feel better. Even so, please remember that time will heal your heart eventually so hang in there...
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