awake

When you are crazily in love, the problems come from external sources
Those are not easy to solve, but for sure much more easier to face than those which come from internal sources
So when you are widely 'awake', you face the reality
And those are the times when all temptation comes
You need to be strong, or else it will snatch your most precious things away
Not just one, but everything will be gone
So you'd rather not to be greedy

pizza and hamburgers

when you said you had the feeling
i could not believe it
was my extra effort paid off...?
although i smelled like pizza and you smelled like hamburgers
i wanted to see you right away
but being far from you could be the best thing
so you would not see the redness on my face

Health and Body

In this busy situation, it's impossible to get sick. I mean, yes it is very likely to get sick since I don't have enough sleep and rest everyday, but then I can't afford to get sick. That means I have to take care of myself.

Sleeping early is not an option for me, as the workloads keep increasing and assignments are piling up. Then I have to find other ways to at least reduce the possibility of me catching any illness. Fruits like banana, strawberry or any other kind that I barely touched in the past years become my main menu now, at least one per day. Drinking more water also become a new rule for me. Eating properly is a must, and cleaning the room is one of my agenda every week; although the last one is often missed because of this tight schedule of mine.

Hmmm... It's pretty much amazing how this girl, who never ever cared about her own health before, became sort of health conscious. Great improvement, eh!? ^^

break time

Before resuming my studies, let me share some stories that I have in these couple of days.

I haven't surfed on people's blogs for weeks, and it just happened that Friendster gave me a notice on updated blog. So I opened this blog, not realizing whose blog it was. It was my high school teacher's blog. As I read and read and kept reading, I realized that it's so beautiful, I mean her feeling and dedication as a mother and wife. And her husband, who was also my high school teacher, gave her a comment in one of her post which is so so sooooo romantic. So nice...

Anyway, onto the next topic. As a part of my continuing research, please answer this question: Do you think avocado juice is an Indonesian food? (or should I say drink.) By this I mean no other countries ever have avocado juice. It's just that everytime I talk about avocado juice to people from other countries, their reaction is like 'huh?! Avocado juice!???' So I had this little research and here is the result. My baby darling -and he's from Malaysia- said he never tasted avocado not until he came here and ate sushi. Ms. YL, also from Malaysia, didn't even know what avocado was. Ms. A, from Japan, said that avocado is only for California rolls (a sushi type). I also remembered my sis said Mrs. PP and Mr. SP, from USA, never tried avocado juice. So, my conclusion is avocado juice is an Indonesian drink. Is this right? Or do you know if avocado juice is from the Netherlands? (since Indonesia was colonialized by the Dutch so I thought maybe we got an influence from them.)

remember

Please remember me, darling...
Remember me and my existence
For I will become extinct very soon
Remember me...

Study Abroad

I know I'm not a kid. And as a kid, I'm pretty sure I didn't ask to buy this and that a lot. Even though I asked, event though it was quite an expensive stuff, I never forced my parents to buy it. Once my parents said no, then I wouldn't ask anymore. When I live by myself now, and finance becomes my own problem, I even pay more attention to what I buy. Although a lot of times I want to buy some stuff, I can help myself to not think about it. I can limit myself to not spend so much. And so you could say I'm living in a low cost rate.

But then this time, it's a strong feeling. I really want it. It doesn't seem important for some people, and I also don't think it's extremely important to me. Maybe I would just waste my time and money, but all I could think of is the experience. I want the experience. I might not be able to adapt to the new environment easily, but I can admit I'm strongly drawn to go and study in other countries. Perhaps you could say right now I'm already studying abroad. Yes, I am, but I want more.

Though financially I might not be able to afford it, but what I regret and can't accept is the way people around me think about it. The way they think it's time and money wasting. The way they want me to graduate as fast as possible and as young as possible.

Maybe I'm just jealous over a friend, who has been studying abroad for more than 3 times in different countries; who has been to Japan, Latin America, North America, and so on and so forth. Maybe it's just a jealousy towards the way her family is rich enough to fund her to go anywhere; the way the people around her think that gaining experience is more important than a success in academic at such a young age; and the way everyone around her doesn't push her that far.

And now I think, what am I pushing myself very hard for? Why do I care to kill myself with 18 credits? And why am I concerned to get as best grades as possible? What for?

Again, maybe it's just a jealousy, or maybe it's how childish I am. But still, I'm disappointed with it.

lessons from a movie

After watching The Break-Ups, I realized how much pride (a.k.a. gengsi) could harm our relationships with people. Hmmmm... Maybe I should learn from this as I could be considered as one who cares about pride so much.

The ending is not relly satisfying, but I recommend this movie to some guys out there! They need to learn that no matter how patient we -girls- are, our patience has its limit. Note that I didn't say all guys, but SOME guys; so if you think you're not included in that 'some' category, no offense alright?

Cheers,
PePei