lessons from a movie

After watching The Break-Ups, I realized how much pride (a.k.a. gengsi) could harm our relationships with people. Hmmmm... Maybe I should learn from this as I could be considered as one who cares about pride so much.

The ending is not relly satisfying, but I recommend this movie to some guys out there! They need to learn that no matter how patient we -girls- are, our patience has its limit. Note that I didn't say all guys, but SOME guys; so if you think you're not included in that 'some' category, no offense alright?

Cheers,
PePei

saat menunggu penerbangan yang tertunda

Kala hati sedang bingung,
Siapa yang mengerti?
Kalau hati sedang galau,
Siapa juga yang akan mengerti?

Kala semua tak pernah merasakannya,
Apa mereka bisa mengerti?
Kalau pun ada yang pernah merasa,
Apa aku mengerti?

Bingung, aku benci!
Mau bertanya pada siapa?
Manusia-manusia terlanjur mengecap jelek
Buruknya saja yang digosipi

Kenyataannya, sisi baiknya apa kelihatan?
Kalau aku berkata begini, mereka bilang begitu
Tak percaya pokoknya!
Kapan dong aku bisa diyakini?

Susah memang kalau punya kepribadian ganda
Satu begini, satunya begitu
Mau begini, maunya begitu
Terus gimana dong?

Ikut setan, atau ikut malaikat?
Ikut kata hati, atau ikut kata pikiran?
Kalau boleh, aku pengen jadi diriku sendiri
Yang bebas lepas, tanpa dibebani omongan-omongan nyasar

Tapi, emangnya bisa???

Di sebuah airport saat menunggu penerbangan yang tertunda, 24 Agustus 2006

Menunggu Bintang Jatuh

Aku berdiri di tengah keramaian
Suara melintas di sana-sini
Namun apa yang kurasa?
Sepi, sepi aku sendiri

Aku berlari mencari langit
Berharap melihat seberkas cahaya
Namun di manakah engkau bintang?
Yang kudapat hanya kelamnya malam

Dunia, mengapa kau permainkan aku?
Di saat kucari, kau pergi
Di saat kudiam, kau tak datang
Apa maumu?

Kau yang begitu mudah mengatakannya
Namun segera hilang terseret angin
Lalu apa itu teman?
Apa itu cinta?

Meteor, melintaslah!
Ku kan selalu menunggu
Jadilah setitik harapan
Berikan aku teman sejati

2004

Du

That afternoon, I caught you on my sight
And there, you were visible on my night

The you, whom I would not be able to have
And yet, why were you there?

I would not dare to appear right in front of you and say "hey, let's go to that country with me"
I would not even have the courage to say a simple hi and introduce myself

Though our paths have crossed once or twice or even more
Perhaps, you won't realize that this creature does exist in the world

Tired, looking at you from afar
Different taste, different story, different level

I would not fit in your story at all
So why? Why were you there?

Birdcage

I am a tamed bird who has been living in a cage for years. Day by day passes by just by looking at this small garden. Small, yet peaceful and beautiful, singing along with the flowers and trees.

I thought I was happy and satisfied. But, was it true...? Yes, it's true that I'm happy. Yet, I can't say that I'm satisfied.

I wanna fly in a clear sky, to taste the freedom and the wilderness. Jealousy of eagles always emerges, but here I am locked in a cage. No matter how hard I scream for freedom, I won't ever get it. Never... ever....

The wind blows and the grass whispers to me, "We will help you run if you're willing to fly." But, I am afraid of escaping this comfortable cage. What if I'm unable to stay alive? What if I'm not able to fly and fall? And now I'm still stuck here in the same place as before, thinking...

I'm still a bird locked in a cage...
I'm just a bird locked in a cage...

05232006 - 07052006
Between Babat and Jakarta

impianku yang berbeda

Setahun dua tahun ku menabung di negeri orang
Menabung ilmu dan menabung mimpi
Meski susah payah harus ku hadapi
Kan ku tahan demi meraih mimpi
Tinggalkan akar muasalku
Apakah aku salah?
Kalau ku inginkan jalan lain dari yang lain
Mengapa dianggap salah?

23 Mei 2006 * 28 Mei 2006
Tanah Babat * Tanah Jakarta

dying...

A splash of your blood spoils my body
Eating away all my cells
My brain starts to lose its function
My heart is weakened
I know I'm dying
Vanishing you may not be the best idea
But might not be too late
Might result in my instant death either
This is a bet of life and death
What should I do?
Only microsecond spare is left