Kemarin, gue berasa mau mati...

Hari ini gue lagi gak enak badan. Tapi ini udah mendingan. Kalo mikirin keadaan gue kemaren kayanya parah banget, sempet kepikiran gue mo nelpon ambulan masuk UGD, tapi mengingat gue lagi gak ada asuransi kesehatan makanya gak jadi nelpon 911. Harap tau aja, sekali nelpon ambulan untuk pergi ke rumah sakit yang jaraknya cuman sepersekian kilometer aja tarifnya udah mencapai ribuan dollar. Bisa mampus gue...

Kemaren tuh pulang kantor gue udah ngerasa pusing-pusing nggak jelas gitu. Tapi masih banyak urusan yang mesti gue selesein di rumah, jadinya gue paksain aja beraktivitas seperti biasa. Makan, mandi, cuci piring, semua masih gue lakukan dengan sukses. Sampe sekitar jam 1/2 11 malem, eng ing eng... Kepala gue muter-muter dan badan meriang. Gue putuskan untuk minum obat dan tidur aja.

Ternyata sodara-sodara, gue gak bisa tidur aja loh! Saking pusingnya gue udah mau muntah, tapi tidur pun nggak bisa. Gue udah usahain mikir macem-macem biar ketiduran, dari mikirin yang seneng-seneng, ngitung domba, sampe berdoa rosario dalem hati, masih nggak bisa tidur padahal kepala udah gak karu-karuan. Lebih parah lagi, tiba-tiba ada gejala untuk ke wc. Ternyata gue diare juga! Padahal untuk bangun dari posisi tidur aja kepala gue tambah pusing, begitu kena cahaya, kepala gue makin mau meledak. Tapi apa daya untuk ke wc gue mesti nyalain lampu. Dalam keadaan diare sambil pusing, gue langsung mau mumun.. tau kan? Mumun = mun**h. Badan gue juga langsung meriang gemeteran gitu. Mending kalo diare nya cuman sekali, ini bolak-balik booo...

Meriang + pusing banget + diare + mumun + gak bisa tidur = mau mati aja. Entah kenapa saking sengsaranya gue sampe bersiap melepaskan nyawa. Bener deh, ini gak hiperbolis. Apalagi idup sendirian gini, lagi sakit parah tapi gak ada yang ngurusin. Mumun aja mesti gue bersihin sendiri meskipun kondisi gue kayak gini, soalnya kalo dibiarin gitu aja baunya bisa ke mana-mana kan, bikin orang tambah sakit aja.

Untungnya gak tau gimana dan jam berapa, sepertinya obat yang gue minum mulai bekerja. Pokoknya tau-tau gue bangun udah pagi, sakitnya udah mereda (meskipun masih kerasa gak enak badan), dan udah waktunya ke kantor. Thank God it's over! Mudah-mudahan hari ini gue lebih sehat lagi. Dan semoga ini bukan berarti saya terkena muntaber...

longing

kind and tender
yet strong enough to drag me like an ocean wave
pulling me at his own pace
taking me along everywhere he goes
and i will follow


let me soar through the sky together with you




if you exist please knock on my life
and we will start our journey together

Terror of Horror

A few minutes ago, just when I got home and changed my clothes and got on the bed to relax, I saw something. A terror... A horror... Were my eyes failing me? I didn't think so, I just changed my glasses with an updated prescriptions recently. There it was, on the floor, a spider as big as 4 centimeters.

Was it dead? To be safe, I had to step on it and throw it away. But I would never do it without wearing sandals and having a piece of tissue paper with me. Just when I grabbed a tissue paper and wore my glasses, the spider moved away so fast! Shoot! If it got away, I wouldn't be able to sleep peacefully tonight knowing that the spider might roam around me freely. Usually when there were people around me, I would just scream and let people take care of it. But then I was alone, and if I did not do anything about it, it might crawl on me when I slept tonight. Yucks!

So, complete with my war equipments, I went around looking for the spider. As soon as I found it, without any further hesitation, I stepped on it and pressed my foot (with the sandal of course) harder to make sure it really died. After about ten seconds I lifted my foot and it did not seem to move at all, which means it was safe to take it with tissue and throw it away. I flushed it down the toilet, and to be safe again, I flushed the toilet the second time. Yes, that was the degree of my paranoia if you asked, bugs and the likes are a BIG NO NO for me.

The big question is, where did it come from? I just hoped there are no bug/spider nests around my apartment. Otherwise I am so gonna freak out and call a 24-hour exterminator right away.

On a side note, I was fortunate enough that the big spider was not a tarantula. If it was, I would leave my apartment and call the management emergency contact number right away.